Awak.

" For the rest of my life

I'll be with you

I'll stay by your side

Honest and true

Till the end of my time

I'll be loving you

Loving you.. "

Thank you sayang.

I love you. so much.

menjaga hati.

kadang-kadang, demi menjaga hati orang yang kita sayang, kita sanggup diam.

kadang-kadang, demi menjaga hati orang yang kita sayang, kita sanggup sakit sendiri.

benda2 yang mmg pertama kali terjadi dalam hidup aku.

benda yang nampak mudah. remeh temeh. biasa. yang sebenarnya membuatkan fikiran bercelaru. fikir macam-macam. fikir bukan-bukan.

benda yang dari dulu aku pendam, tahan. sabar.

seriously, tak tahu macam mana nak cakap. macam mana nak buat. biarkan je ke. atau luahkan.

tak tahu. tolerate. that's the word. dengan mak abah.dengan keluarga. kawan-kawan. kekasih.

for me, kalau ada apa2 jangan pendam sendiri. problem ke, rasa tak puas hati, pendapat, benda gembira, sedih atau apa saja, luahkan. orang yang kita sayang dan orang yang sayang kita pasti faham. dengar dan terima dengan baik luahan hati kita.

lepas tu apa nak jadi, apa2 tindakan yang dia nak ambil tu terpulanglah.

tapi kadang-kadang, demi menjaga hati orang yang kita sayang, susah nak luahkan.

:)

I miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss My family.

*mana akak? :(

Quick Update 4

Hey blog.

ive been busy.

bangun pagi. mandi. siap2. gi study room. study.

exam's comingg. takut gle serious takut.

this is my first acca exam.

honestly, rasa lain dari exam masa kat mmu dulu.

the pressure is double. triple! huhu

its 9pm and i just got back. pagi keluar malam baru balik.

penat penat.

study. just study.

usaha.doa dan tawakal.

InsyaAllah :)

*Good luck and all the best to all my friends who is taking Acca exam in Msia or London.

hope we all will pass pass pass. Ameen..

♥

Di dirimu, aku menemukan..

Yang mencintaiku..

Yang menyayangiku..

Aww so sweet.

Aielwai NHJ :)

111.

since July 2009 until today.

my blog have 111 post already.

humm banyak jugak update. not that lazytoupdate.not that rajinaswell.

today. 10th Nov 2010.

woke up late. and its 5 degree. menggigil.sejukk..

have no idea how is it gonna be during winter.

takpalah. experience.

*since im here..

every time i saw an airplane in the sky...

i wish i am in that airplane..

ask them..

to take me back..

to my country..

Kerana aku wanita.

kerana aku wanita
pandangan Adam mampu tembus ke dasar hatiku

kerana aku wanita
ingin disayangi itu fitrah diriku

kerana aku wanita
mudah terpikat dengan keindahan akhlak seorang lelaki

kerana aku wanita
emosiku selalu mengatasi logik akalku

kerana aku wanita
air mata teman setiaku

kerana aku wanita
sensitivitiku terhadap sesuatu amat tinggi

DAN..

kerana aku wanita
aku damba pertolongan darimu Adam

peliharalah bicaramu denganku
jangan bermain kata denganku
takut rosak hatiku

kerana aku wanita
akhlakmu ukuran dimataku

peliharalah akhlakmu dan imanmu
jangan kau burukkan darjatmu pada mataku
takut rosak thiqohmu

kerana aku wanita
maka peliharalah susunan kata-katamu

kerana aku mudah terasa
namun aku bukan lemah
sekadar ingin kau tahu hati ini mudah tercalar

kerana aku wanita
peliharalah dirimu dari mencemuhku

saat titisan jernih mengalir dari mataku
kerana itu cara untukku
meluahkan perasaanku
supaya hatiku tenang kembali

kerana aku wanita
aku memang sangat peka

maka fahamilah kecerewetanku ada sebabnya..

*taken from a website ;)

:D

Happyyyyy happy happyyyyy!!

This is the word for todayy. Wee :D :D :D

After a long tiring day these past 3 days, harini duduk rumah the whole day.

Relaxing my body and mind. Do something i am interested in. that is..apart from singing...

...lalalaaaaa..

........Cooking!

wee. i made Nasi Ayam todayyy. woohooo .first timeee. it's an achievement to myself when i successfully made it and my housemate said "sedapppppp :"> seronoknyaa!!

really feels good when you cook, you watch others eat and they enjoyed it .

Alhamdulillah jadi pun. * thanks to mak sayang for the recipe :D

So inilah nasi ayam saya :D

*Nyummm :D

Uniqueness.

Google again! :) for those who are aware, and slightly remember, I had once uploaded pic of google's creativity where that is for Sesame Street's anniversary. Oh this time it is on Halloween. I love it. I love creative things.

Can you spot the word 'Google' in these pics?

Its November. Wow. Seriously, time flies really fast. Exam is cominggg. Oh my. One month to go.

Focus focus please focus. All class has started to do revisions and stuff. I am seriously scared with this professional exam. Pheww. The weather is so cold. No. not cold anymore. Its freeezingg. OMG. Wear socks and sweater everyday at home. Haih. It is kinda hard to even open the book and starts this brain to work out regardless of lotsoffactors that make me umm..

Oh one more thing. 30th Oct 2010. I will never forget this date. Experience 1 am twice!! Daylight saving ends on 2am . The clock went back one hour at that time. We had extra 1 hour. its 25 hours man. COOL! UK is now 8 hours behind Msia :)

Decisions decisions.

In life, whatever happens is actually because of the choices you made. things will not go into 'reality, if you don't choose 'that way' to be. simple. what you eat everyday is your own choice. what time you want to go to bed is your own choice. what you gonna wear today is what you choose. it is all about making choices. decisions.

to get here, to further study is my own choice. i am the one who wants to do this. instead of working, have a good life back in my home country,i choose to be here. this is, frankly said, is one of the biggest decision i made. decisions of my life. what's going to be soon, in the future, is because of the choice i made. it is certainly, not easy to make a BIG decision for your own self, as this will eventually affect your life. as if your entire life.

leaving you family, your friends, your love ones is, seriously, i didn't really think about when i make decision to come here. you might think, "oh thats' okey. technologies nowadays make us feel close to anyone anywhere around the world. internet.phones. but yeah, its true. thanks to technologies who kept me close with my loved ones, even though i am far million miles away from them. but still, it is not the same as meeting them face to face.

appreciate your family, your friends, and everyone you love, when they are still 'there. appreciate every thing you have. i am thankful. grateful. and blissful for all the things happens in my life. keep pray-ing for things to get better and better everyday. InsyaAllah :)

Yang terindah.

Semenjak kau hadir dalam hidupku

Tiada lagi keresahan

Kau mengetuk pintu hatiku

Tanpa sedar hingga ku izinkan..

Kau yang bernama cinta

Kau yang memberi rasa

Kau yang ilhamkan bahagia

Hingga aku rasa..indah..

Maaf jika ku tidak sempurna

Tika bahagia mula menjelma

Bila keyakinan datang merasa

Kasih disalut dengan kejujuran..

Mencintai dirimu

Merindui dirimu

Memiliki dirimu hingga akhir hayat bersama kamu..

Ops :p

Sifat orang yang lahir pada bulan September :

[][] Sangat bersopan santun & bertolak ansur.
[][] Sangat cermat, teliti & teratur.
[][] Suka menegur kesilapan orang lain & mengkritik.
[][] Pendiam tapi pandai bercakap.
[][] Sikap sangat cool, sangat baik & mudah simpati.
[][] Sangat perihatin & terperinci, amanah, setia & jujur.
[][] Kerja yang dilakukan sangat sempurna.
[][] Sangat sensitif yang tidak diketahui.
[][] orang yang banyak berfikir.
[][] Daya pentaakulan yang baik.
[][] Otak bijak & mudah belajar.
[][] Suka mencari maklumat.
[][] Kawal diri dari terlalu mengkritik.
[][] Pandai mendorong diri sendiri.
[][] Mudah memahami orang lain kerana banyak menyimpan rahsia.
[][] Suka sukan, hiburan & melancong.
[][] Kurang menunjukkan perasaannya.
[][] Terluka hatinya sangat lama disimpan.
[][] Terlalu memilih pasangan.
[][] Sukakan benda yang luas.
[][] Bersistematik.

lalalaa..saje saje :p

Quick Update 3

Update2.

So i went to Emirates Stadium with the housemates and Jal. on 10.10.10. Beautiful date gitu. hehe. To my dearest cik dayat and my brother ridhwan. jgn jeles yea. nanti pegi okey :p

Petticoat Lane.

Petticoat Lane in the morning, then straight away to the stadium. after that we had dinner at Camden town ;)

Camden town.

InsyaAllah..

Every time
You feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost and that you're so alone
All you see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless you can't see which way to go
Don't despair
And never lose hope
'Cause Allah is always by your side

InsyaAllah.

You'll find your way..

emotionally unstable.

as a girl, there are 'times when you will become too emotional.too sensitive. too easy to drop your tears. i have become someone so sensitive in heart since.. i admit, it is since i know you. i am not easily-cry-type-of-person before.seriously i am not.

it is hard to be far from each other.it is hard. to be far from your family,from your close friends. from you. yes especially from you. you will tend to think of them all the time.

i miss you. and i am not tired to say this often. to say this all the time. i want u to know, how much i miss you. when you are apart from the person you love the most, the love of your life, it is the time when you will then appreciate your loved ones so much more than before.

i know you hate seeing me sad and cry every time i missed you. i am sorry i just cant help it. i cry and cry to make me feel better. to my housemates, dont worry, each time you guys see me crying, is actually the time when i miss my love the most. when i cant stop thinking of him.

our time may be different and we might be separates million miles away.

but distance never separates two heart that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. Whenever i starts to feel sad because i miss you, i remind myself how lucky i am to have someone so special to miss.

I miss you.

Bff

really really miss my bestfriends.

Hope they are doing well.with their life.

sory babes. cant be there for all of you now.

keep in touch no matter what.

i love you girls so much

the best of friend i ever had

Enna Dy Weena

*hugs*

22nd Sept 2010.

My first birthday celebration far from my family..Every year they will celebrate my birthday, with a cake and of course birthday present from both mum and dad :) Sobs rindu!

Miss my best friends back in Malaysia ; Enna Dy Weena Nana Irene

who every year celebrates my birthday since we've known each other..

Thanks a million to my lovely friends here in London for the birthday surprise!

I was sooooo sooo surprise! so many people lots of new people i met.

Thank u mother, for the call. for the bday song. she called me 12 midnight UK. sweetnya mak ni ;)

Thank u abah for the sms. sayang abah sangat.

Thank u awak :) for the ..umm.. 'hadiah awal hari jadi', for messages, for the calls and especially for the bDay song! weee.

Thank u my dearest Dy and Weena for calling me. i know its expensive, tp call jugak thanks so much sayang korang.

Thank u Enna for the bday song thru ym call.

Kak Diha!! thank u so much for the messages. twitter ym fb suma u wish i. hehe sayang u taw.

Thank u everyone who wished me through FB and YM.

To farah, thank youuuu for the birthday cake. she made it herself and it was delicious! ;)

Thank u so much.

Happy birthday to me.

my greatest birthday present this year since You came into mylife.

p/s : 31 hours of the date! Weehee :D

Raya.

to my family; my parents Mak & Abah

my brothers Wan & Shukri. my lovely sister Syafiqah

my uncles and aunties, my cousins both in Johor and Pahang

my friends in Msia, also in London

and to awakyangdisayangi,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Maaf Zahir & Batin..

*first time raya dgn kawan-kawan.first time tak balik kampung. first time tak dapat duit raya langsung.first time raya tanpa family.first time raya dkt luar negara.first time raya naik bas.naik train.first time raya2 tgk bunga api dkt jambatan sejuk gile malam2. first time raya skype2 dgn family dkt kampung :)

pic above- me and my close friends in London, at Sheikh and Amni's open house in Croydon.

Update yang cepat.

1- Semalam first time pegi Malaysian Embassy for buka puasa & terawih. Besttt rasa mcm dekat Msia. Suma org msia dlm tu. terawih , perempuan2 suma pakai telekung. Makan makanan msia.Bestt tempat dia mcm hotel :D

2- Kadang-kadang buka puasa dkt MSD (Malaysian Student Department). Yang ni mmg best. Makcik2 yg bawak makanan salunya bwk nasi dgn lauk2 yg wow sedap gilee :P Lepas buka kat situ, pegi Masjid Peckham for terawih. Terawih dkt sana mmg best. Imam bace wow laju abes. tak sempat abes bace fatihah dia dh rukuk dah. tak sempat bace duduk antara 2 sujud smpai abes dia dah sujud dah. Oh and dkt masjid ni kalau pegi terawih, kitorang jela from Msia, which means kitorang je yg pakai telekung. Pakai je suma nak tgk. Diorang rilek abes, semayang pakai skirt labuh nmpk kaki pun takda hal. First time terawih 20 rakaat sbb laju! ahaha. Bila dh habis pun mcm "eh, dh 20 ke? :P

3- Alhamdulillah, i arrived here in the month of Ramadhan. Pengalaman berpuasa, buka puasa sahur dkt negara orang. Lepas ni raya pulak :)

4- Pegi museum. Natural History Museum. Dekat sini masuklah mana2 muzium yang anda suka.Semuanya freeeee :P Best juga muzium ni. Banyak dinosour :D

5- Bukak youtube mcm dgr Mp3 ja. Lajuuuuu. No no buffer buffer. I likee :D

6- Sekarang dah boleh online di mana2 sahaja berada. Kerana apa..Jeng jeng jengg..:P

7- Hari2 naik bas. Pegi mana2 naik bas. Public transport dkt sini mmg terbaik. Dkt almost every bus stop akan tulis bas No ** akan smpai lg bape minit. And tepat skali masa dia smpai. Mmg on time!

8- Saya rindu keluarga saya. Kesian kat rumah tggl 3 orang je. Raya nnti 4 org je. hehe. Rindu kawan2 saya. Soryy takda open house tahun ni. And tak dpt la raya umah korang semua. Awak, saya sentiasa rindukan awak :)

Quick Update 2

Last Sunday, went all the way to Birmingham, which took 2 hours journey from London naik train, just to watch EPL! Never once in my life thought that i would go and watch football live depan mata! and it was like Wow. Seriously, im not a fan of football, rarely watch it.. tgk pun kalau adik2 tgk jela kan. But it was such an experience. the feel is different. the fanatic fan yang mcm Wow. berdiri sepanjang game, nyanyi2 tepuk2 tangan mcm tak penat ke? haha. And the game was Aston Villa vs Everton. One of my greatest experience :)

Together with Maya, Tia, Amni, Tun and Sheikh. Thank u guys for the great time. Thank u for inviting me :)

New life

27th Aug 2010. its already been a week since im here in London,UK. trying hard to adapt myself to this whole new environment. So far ok la kot,just sejuk yang amat for orang2 yang tak tahan sejuk mcm saya. Seriously bangun2 mengigil. Sahur menggigil. Malam2 nak tido menggigil. Haih.. Maybe because im still new here, tak berapa biasa dengan cuaca mcm ni. Kalau dekat rumah pasang aircond pun 5 min lepas tu tutup..

Arrived in Stansted Airport,London on the 20th of Aug. 13 hours flight alone really scares me out. takut since this is the first time travelling alone jauh2. mmg kaki sakit gila lenguh2 kebas suma ada. Soon as i arrived, Farah fetch me at the airport. Thank u so much i would've lost nervous takut kalau farah takde. thank you so much dear :)

On the 23rd of Aug, i went to Kaplan to register myself as Acca student. Ramai gle orang maybe because it's the first day of registration. that time my number was 395, where the current number is only 240. Fuhhh almost 2 hours waiting.. Everything went well, im so lucky to have such a friendly & very nice officer who helped me everything, from choosing the venue of my classes, from settling down my payment, about the ID card which students kat situ semua kene swipe card before masuk kelas for attendance. cool! :D

I live with Farah here in Old Kent Road. its like an apartment tp mmg kecik je..2 bedrooms, a kitchen and a toilet. no dining hall, living hall. Betul2 depan rumah ada McD, tp tengok jela kan.. Next to McD ada ASDA, kalau kat Msia mcm Tesco. So best la everytime nak beli2 barang keluar rumah jalan kaki sikit dah sampai.

So far people around here is ok. Baik2.. Some of them are friendly but mostly from what i can see is diorang semua jenis yang buat hal sendiri je. tak pandang orang sangat so best la. Takde la rasa mcm awkward sngt kan :)

Seriously, miss everyone back in Msia. *aik baru seminggu kot* yesss tahu tapi tapi.. humm yes i miss my family, my friends and i miss You a lot .. already..

Thank you so much my family, mak abah fikah..to awak :) thank you for the present i love it! to ijam, najib, irene, lana, muiz. thank you for coming. jida fad selena, thanks so much for the photo frame comel gle ada gmba kita, for the kad raya and kad goodbye tu, thank you :)

*Thank you all for sending me at the airport. I love you all.. thank you..

when u think of me..

when u miss me..

look at the sky..

i'll be smiling at you..

all night long..

Quick Update 1

graduated.thank u mmu.thank u motherfather and lil sis syafiqah for being there on my convocation day.my uncle ami jaar and aunty nuli, iman and wawa. sayangku, awak yg suka buat surprise :) my manjer enna dy nana. kak diha thank u sangat datang all the way from perlis i love u! lana zubir and everyone thanks so much for coming. thank you for the flowers oh i love flowerssss :D the gifts and the wishes.weena shira thank you for the gifts eventhough tak dapat dtg i know u guys love me :P one of the sweetest moment in mylife. Alhamdulillah :)

farewell with officemates thank u miss chan miss mei miss pohtin and of course jida for making this jumpa2 before pegi jauh *terharuuu* :)

watch musical theatre for my first time ever.thankuawak.thank u thank u thank u. u the best :)

already collected my visa.oh another umm.tendays? huhu.

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan. Selamat Berpuasa. Semoga amalan kita semua diterima oleh Allah swt. Amin..

Hikmah Ayat Kursi :)

1) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi
apabila berbaring di tempat tidurnya,
Allah SWT mewakilkan dua orang Malaikat
memeliharanya hingga subuh.

2) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di
akhir setiap sembahyang Fardhu, dia akan
berada dlm lindungan Allah SWT hingga
sembahyang yang lain.


3) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di
akhir tiap sembahyang,tidak menegah akan
dia daripada masuk syurga kecuali maut
dan barang siapa membacanya ketika
hendak tidur, Allah SWT memelihara akan
dia ke atas rumahnya, rumahjirannya dan
ahli rumah-rumah disekitarnya.

4) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di
akhir tiap2 sembahyang fardhu, Allah SWT
menganugerahkan dia setiap hati orang
yg bersyukur, setiap perbuatan orang yg
benar, pahala nabi2 serta Allah
melimpahkan padanya rahmat.

5) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi
sebelum keluar rumahnya, maka Allah SWT
mengutuskan 70,000 Malaikat kepadanya -
mereka semua memohon keampunan dan
mendoakan baginya.

6) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di
akhir sembahyang Allah SWT akan
mengendalikan pengambilan rohnya dan dia
adalah seperti orang yang berperang
bersama Nabi Allah sehingga mati syahid.

7) Barang siapa yang membaca ayat
Al-Kursi ketika dalam kesempitan nescaya
Allah SWT berkenan memberi pertolongan
kepadanya.

Dari Abdullah bin 'Amr r.a.,
Rasulullah S.A.W.bersabda,"Sampaikanlah pesanku biarpun satu ayat..."

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around :p

Uncertain 2.

A Virgo dislikes Being uncertain about situations.

Ini apa yang saya jumpa di twitter - ZodiacFact.

Saya seorang virgo dan saya rasa kenyataan diatas agak betul. Humm who likes to be in uncertain situations anyway? Bukan saja virgo-ians tapi orang2 lain juga. Kadang-kadang kita rasa macam nak sangat tahu tentang sesuatu. Make things clear. Nak tanya. Nak sangat tahu.Tapi disebabkan kita tak sanggup nak tengok seseorang itu sedih stress takda mood dan sebagainya disebabkan pertanyaan kita tu,maka kita pun simpan sahaja dalam hati.Tanya pada diri sendiri sahaja. Cari jawapan sendiri, dengan masa yang kata orang menentukan segalanya. Doa dan minta petunjuk dari Yang Maha Esa.

Mungkin bagi sesetengah orang, berdiam diri, tanggung sendiri kesedihan kesusahan kebingungan hidup seorang diri adalah lebih baik. Taknak susahkan orang lain katanya. Tapi bukan kah Allah ciptakan manusia di dunia ini, berkeluarga berkawan berpasangan? Tiada manusia didunia ini yang boleh hidup sendiri seorang diri. Sebab tu Allah bagi kita ibu bapa.adik beradik.kawan kawan.kawan kawan baik.kawan istimewa atau apa jua panggilan.

Kadang-kadang, dengan mak abah sendiri pun, terasa macam sangat banyak benda nak tanya. Bukan tak puas hati cuma nak tanya.Nak dapatkan kepastian.Nak dapatkan jawapan kepada soalan2 'kenapa' yang sangat banyak bermain dalam kepala. Contoh paling senang. Anak sulung dengan anak bongsu. Banyak sangat beza cara layanan yang kadang kala membuatkan anak sulung rasa macam, adil kah begitu? atau pun 'mmg anak sulung perlu sentiasa beralah? Tetapi sekali lagi, disebabkan tak mahu melukakan hati mana-mana pihak, maka kita pilih untuk berdiam diri. Bersabar, berkongsi masalah dengan kawan rapat dan mungkin membuatkan kita cuba untuk menjadi yang lebih baik dan lebih baik lagi di masa akan datang.

Hidup ini penuh dengan dugaan dan cabaran, yang memerlukan kita untuk tempuhi dengan penuh kesabaran. Semuanya sudah ditentukan oleh Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan memberikan sesuatu musibah,masalah,dugaan kepada seseorang kecuali dengan mengetahui bahawa seseorang itu dapat menghadapinya dengan baik. Dia Maha Mengetahui.

Hidup ini adalah untuk beribadah kepada Allah swt yang telah menjadi kan kita manusia,sebaik-baik kejadian.

Tujuan kita dicipta oleh Allah swt adalah untuk beribadah kepada-Nya.

Firman Allah "Aku tidak ciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan untuk beribadat kepadaku"

Kita wajib beribadah sebagai tanda syukur kepada-Nya, atas segala nikmat yang terlalu banyak.Tidak mampu kita menghitungnya,terlalu banyak nikmat,malah percuma.

Antara tugas dan kewajipan rasul adalah mengajak manusia menyembah Allah dan menjauhi taghut(kejahatan). Jika nabi yang sangat rapat dgn Allah pun tidak terlepas mengerjakan ibadat,apatah lagi kita.

Kita mesti beribadat kepada Allah kerana Dialah yang paling berkuasa. Allah yang mengatur kehidupan kita,oleh itu janganlah kita leka.

*untuk dikongsi bersama :)

introducing..*eh perlu nak introduce ke? popular dh kot akak kita nie..heheh

this is kak diha :) my sister.hee.

sisters not in blood but she's really like a sister to me.

my funny caring sweet gorgeous hotnesss sister. *wow i puji2 u ni kak diha.haha :p

dalam family, saya anak sulung.selama tak pernah tahu perasaan ada kakak. so dgn kak diha, mmg terasa mcm adik.ahaha.

we share our happiness and sadness.

and i will never forget all the sweettt memories we had together ;)

oh im so glad i know you. *Alhamdulillah.Weee !

oh one more thing.im so happy for you kak diha.your hot news last few weeks makes me feel sooo much happy.seriously.mcm tak caya kakakku ini akan..tutttt.hehe :)

sayang kak dihaaa! thank you so much for being my sister ;)

dream on.

Ok harini bangun2 macam terus cakap dalam hati

"Harini nak update blog lah".

Tapi nak update pasal apa ni?

Lets begin with..

Adik saya, Shukri dah selamat masuk Uitm Pulau Pinang, buat diploma Mechanical Engineering. Saya tahu dia bukan lah berapa suka course ini. tapi sebab ni yang dapat maka dia pun pergi.Takpe ti, maybe this is your destiny. Cakap dekat dia masa register haritu..

"ti, kat sini nanti..ti akan jumpa kawan2 baru..jgn cepat terpengaruh..ur life is going to be different after this..

wah bukan main nasihat.yela.dah penah merasa.first day masuk mmu dulu.masuk je.tak fikir pun apa2. see now. i've made lots of friends.coursemates. classmates. facultymates. bestfriends ;)

Dah abes Degree pun.Alhamdulillah. Masa berlalu dengan sangat cepat. 4 tahun dengan praktikal 6 bulan dah habis rupanya. Sambung belajar lagi. ACCA time.

Oh ACCA stands for Association of Chartered Certified Accountants.

Dulu dalam kelas lecturer banyak pesan.

"Once you finished your deg, i recommend all of you to further ACCA. Just five subject left since you'll have 9 exemption papers.

Masa internship pun supervisor yang ada ACCA tu pun cakap

" You're still young. If you want to further study, i encourage you to."

So ini lah dia. saya akan sambung belajar di London. *wah bukan main blaja kat UK*

Masa sekolah menengah dulu.selalu berangan nak belajar dekat london. berangan cakap sorang2 dpn cermin, mcm jumpe pakcik makcik, bagi tahu diorang "oo kama nanti pergi london".

Wah..tak sangka rupanya dapat juga pegi. Kadang-kadang impian memang jadi kenyataan. Banyak juga perkara yang saya terfikir sekali imbas je, rupanya jadi betul-betul.

Mungkin Allah sedang bagi petunjuk masa tu :)

Ada juga satu benda ni. pernah terfikir skali je.mcm dah jadi pula sekarang.hoho.yang ni serious memang tak sangka langsung. and apakah itu? hmmm.rahsia! :p

* haih rahsia2 baik takyah tulis. biaa laa.ini blog saya.haha* :P

and this is life cycle.

dari baby yang tido sepanjang hari.kepada kanak2 kecil baru belajar ABC.tadika.sekolah rendah.sekolah menengah.masuk universiti.degree.prof course.

lepas ni.kerja.kawin. nanti uruskan anak sendiri pula.ulang balik cycle tadi.

life's wonderful :)

* Will be going to a foreign country in a 13 hour flight alone. be independent.have to.*

P:s/

i dream once to go to this place with the one i love :)

life cycle.

My activities these past few weeks ;)

one of my closest friend in MMU,my very first roommate. get married.congratz nana! :)

Special moment together - celebrates nana & faruq, both my accounting classmates before they got married at Holiday Villa, Kuala Lumpur. Its more like a reunion to us since its been a very long time we havent met each other.especially my dearest, enna, dy & weena ;)

Went to Pulau Pinang..to take a look at my brother's soon-to-be study place at UITM, Bukit Mertajam. overnight at Batu Feringgi :)

:)

saya suka ini.cantik. :) :)

76.

i never thought id live in this world like how i live today.i never thought id have my own car.i never thought to be called 'mmu student.i never thought i could bought a hp with my own money. i never thought that i will go this 'far, like very far.far from my family, from my friends and from you. i never thought that i could sing in an event, in front of a huge number of people. i never thought my univ president would tell me "great voice". i never thought id be this happy like i never felt before. i never thought id sing in front of Tun Dr Siti Hasmah, twice. i never thought id feel so close to someone like he is right inside my heart.i never thought my blog could have up to 76 post.i never thought id perform on my univ Grand hall. i never thought id want to know about someone more than anything else. i never thought id have the feeling of being afraid of loosing someone, like how badly i am afraid of losing you. i never thought id care about someone, more than i care about myself.
you are on my mind more than i may show. you are in my heart more than you may know.
you know who you are.

sayaa.haha

- saya bgn pagi.first thing buat is to brush my hair.hee
- saya drive tak pakai kasut.
- saya tak boleh makan overlimit.kalau tak..sesuatuakanterjadi :P
- saya suka simple simple.
- saya takut tempat tinggi.yes saya gayat.
- saya sayang nenek saye sngt.tggl sorang je nenek di dunia ini.chewahh
- saya punye zodiak ialah virgo.virgo last date is 22nd Sept bday saye.
- kadangkadang 22nd Sept masuk dlm libra first date.haha
- saya takot tempat gelap.
- saya suka sngt kpd kanak2.especially baby.weee :)
- saya suke memasak.tp saya tak terel.huu~
- saya gayat.eh dh ckp ke.
- saya rapat dgn kazen saye dua org.keen & ayu.
- saya ada 2 org kawan baik.sarah & helmi.
- saya punya first crush is masa darjah 6.haha
- saya takot guruh yang kuattt
- saya saje tulis sume ni sbb nk update blog saye.haha

ok dah nnti smbg lagi :P

strength..

i hate this feeling.i seriously hate this feeling.too sensitive at times.is so not-really me.but when the 'timeeeeee' comes.oh-my-god.i can be the most sen-si-tif person on earth.im sory.i dont want this.but i cant control this.huhu.but but.i'll be normal in a quick time.hopefully.haha.nope.normally.kejap je ni.i know it.

wah.what am i talkinggggg.
i barely update my blog.tak tahu nak tulis ape.i am actually the type of person who likes to keep things with only myself.but for certain situation.certain reason, i do share.. with my closest and the best people around me, with the people whom i trust.
so, lucky u :P

its May.its already may.its may already.wahhh.too fast.this is too fast.if only we can stop the time.i really want to.i dont know whats gonna happen to me sooner or later.but i pray to God to give me guidance and all the strength i need to face this world.AMin :)

..

jgn fikir bukan-bukan.
i always remind myself of that.
jangannnn ..
hu.hu.hu
sometimes.saya suke fikir bukan-bukan.fikir negatif.oh.
*istigfar..
jangan2.not good kama not good.
hmmmm.*tarik nafas.
:)

when i look at u :)

Everybody needs inspiration,
Everbody needs a song.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's are long..
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy..

And when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.

When I look at you,
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth..
You love me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon..
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.

Yeah when my world is falling apart,
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.

You appear just like a dream to me.
Just like kaleidoscope colours,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't you know you're beautiful..

When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I look at you..

You appear just like a dream to me..

oh baby baby baby.. :P

my one and only favourite chinese song.hee.i can sing this dr mula smpai habis.and i know the meaning as well.haaa.believe it or not :)

i love F4! i love jerry.*yg pakai baju ade bunga tu.oh oh 8->..

kenal F4 lepas tgk series Meteor Garden.kat ntv 7.masa form 4/5.mcm best glee cite ni.hari2 tunggu ptg nk tgk.xpenah miss.kecuali kalau ade tuisyen.kalau ade, esoknye pagi2 masuk kelas klasmet cite kan ape jd smalam. abes je cite ni.haa x puas lagi.pegi beli CD dia.100 lebih okey sbb byk episod kan.fanatik punye pasal.

lagu F4 yg ni mmg sngt suke lah dulu.sbb tu boleh siap hafal.hee.mmg minat gle kat Jerry.rasanye kalau jumpa depan2 bole pengsan.ahaha! ni dulu la ye.cerita zaman2 sekolah :P

* wo jue bu neng shi qu ni :)

Uncertain.

i guess nobody likes to be in this situation.uncertain.unsure.doubtful.undefined.

unfortunately, im in this kind of situation now.about what.hah.lets just not talk about it.only me myself know it.this not-so-sure.i-dont-know answer i give to the ppl who keep asking me.eh kama.kau dot dot dot dot dot.tuttt eh? sory u guys.i seriously dont know.to be honest.just-go-with-the-flow kind of thing is not that good.it is an option that's cannot be applied everytime anytime anywhere.but chill.as long as we are happy.everybody is happy.why not.just move on.let the faith brings us anywhere it takes.God knows whats best for us.i want to ask.i want to know.i want to make things clear.i want.but i cant.i dont have the guts to do it.i just dont.im enjoying my life to the fullest.:)

you-fulfill-my-fantasy.my-prince-charming.oh-finally-i-met-the-right-person kind off thing.mcm.eh is it really exist bnda2 begini? how do we know that someone is the damnright one? what if.in a week.a month or a year.we met somebody else.are we just gonna forget 'theone' for the moment he is tu? hmm.future future.why cant we see future.why cant we know our future?.this is life.full of surprises.for the things happens now,5 years back, we never had any idea our life is gonna be like this.like today.kan?

day before yesterday.i received a letter from MMU.saying Award of Degree.

"i am pleased to inform you that the Senate of the University that sat on 09 April 2010 has confirmed the award of the following degree to you:-

BACHELOR OF ACCOUNTING (HONOURS)

i wish to extend the university's congratulations to you and wish you all the best in you future undertaking"

wah.do i really have my own Degree now? wohoo.Alhamdulillah.ive finished and im done in MMU.. 10 years back.i never had any idea i'd have a deg in this field.cita2 konon2 nk jadi cikgu lah kan.ingt lagi pegi skolah, curi kapur bawak balik.conteng2 almari main cikgu cikgu sorang2 dlm bilik.kunci bilik.almari abes jadi putih.form 4-5 amek lukisan kejuruteraan lah kan.konon2 nk jadi arkitek.ahaha.masuk mmu.apply first2 Alpha Management.tak taw kenapa.masa tu rasa cam best je managament2 nih.sukati je.lepas tu bile nk buat Deg, tanye abah.nk amek ape ni bah.abah kate.hmm akak mcm minat2 math kan.accounting nak? hoho.accounting eh.ok.letak je accounting first.tgk2 dpt.hoho.takdir sudah menentukan saya akan buat Deg in Account kan :)

Alhamdulillah. selesai semuanya.

sngt lah byk kenangan2 manis dan tak berapa manis kat MMU nih, i'll never forget.to my dearest friends, youknowwhoyouare.thank u so much for everything.i wouldnt have done it w/out u guys.buat assignment sama2.stadi sama2.ponteng kelas sama2.to my roommates.thank u thank u.classmates.my close friends.i love u all . Thank You:)

Think less and love your life more.

how happy you are in your life is not due to chance or luck but to your attitude towards what happens to you.

what would make you feel happy? you probably imagine some state of being where life runs smoothly, your career is taking off, you're dating a hottie and you are fit and healthy so you look and feel drop dead gorgeous every time you leave the house.

the unfortunate thing about this state is that, it always remains in the future ; something you're always working towards but never seems to enjoy. why? because other people get the big breaks or are more talented or were born with more money, intelligence or beauty. or so you might think. But in truth, people who are happy and successful often enjoy their status, because they have an easygoing take on life - not because lady luck falls in their lap 24/7.

- take charge of your thoughts

- give yourself a break

- reality check

- look for the good in everything.

:)

events.

hello blog.sory lamaaaaaaa tak update. ive been busy.am i? no? i dono. :P

sleep at 5 last night. hoho i think so far plng lambat lah. hee

13th April.Festari 2010.me involve,again. perform for closing. Permata Dunia (MMU song). oh. what can i say.Alhamdulillah.everything went well :) probably my last event in MMU.im grateful.very. first time my family came to an event i perform.see me sing on stage.thanks so much.my father mother my adik2.tomoro sume keje skolah,tp dtg jugak.love u all sangattt.

last few weeks.pegi kursus kawin.* ohdhnakkawinsngtke?* haha.no lah.never thought of it pun. saje pegi.with lana.shes very excited nk pegi.so why not.mcm pegi kelas agama je.best.kelakar.serious best.*nkpegilagi ke?* haha.dependsss. pemilihan calon isteri..suami..hikmah perkahwinan..dan mcm2 lagi..general knowledge.tp lebih detail lah.hmm best best.

thank u Allah, thank u family and friends.and thank u, awak.

*im happy for what-ever reasons 'it' happens. :) :)

..

nuha arissa.

cousin punya anak.

first cicit dlm family belah abah.

what must she called me? auntie/makcik kama ke? :P hoho~

:)

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed.. sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head.. spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night..

You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold.. buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile ..

..

Wahai Tuhan, ku tak layak ke syurgaMu
Namun tak pula aku sanggup ke nerakaMu..

pics only :P

we are family. :P

ayah/ketua kmpg :D

ayah & diane

my dearest!

shira :)

:)

dimulakan dgn Bismillah..

disudahi dgn Alhamdulillah..

begitulah sehari dlm hidup kita..

mudah-mudahan dirahmati Allah..

im happy.regardless :)

deng.gi

tetibe terasa nk share psl denggi.16-21/11/08.masuk hospital sbb denggi.ceritanya begini..

2 weeks before 16/11 tu..demam..(biasalah symptom2 denggi kan.)..mula2 pegi la klinik..dia bg hmm cam biasa la ubat demam..antibiotik..sume2 tu..

lepas seminggu..eh eh demam ni x baik2.makin panas pula..pegila hospital..dia check2 sume..kata demam panas aje..so, dia pn bg la ubat demam (adeh, ubat demam lagiiiiiii..)..esok nye tu, rasa x ok lg.lusa nye..rasa cam sakit2 tulang.siyes sakit giler.. lenguh yg amat lah org kate.duduk sakit,baring lagi lah sakit.rasa cam nk nangis woo..sakit dia tu..dia cam menusuk2 tulangku ini..haihh.

pastu pegi la bitahu abah..ckp "abah..sakit gle badan akak.." pastu abah terus, haaa ni denggi la ni.demam demam sakit tulang segala..

dia pn bwk la blik g hospital tu..

doktor amek darah..pastu dia suh tggu jap.dup dap dup dap.dia dtg balik, tadaaaaaa "awak kene denggi ye" ..

waa tahniah2. :)) maka sy pn dgn ini menjadi warga sementara KPMC Puchong :D

pastu time tu gak kene trus g baring kat blik sbelah tu.dia kate kene mskkan air. first time gtu msk2 hospital dh besar2 nih..time kecik2 salu la.sakit ape? jeng3..

masa kene baring tu.mcm.nak.n.a.n.g.i.s.huhu.takot2.ye, saya mmg takot.jarum2.darah2.dan sebagainya.

nk mskkan air tu..kene cucuk kat urat dlu..before dia cucuk.dia ckp..

"dik, ni sakit sikit ye."

waahh ni yg xnak dengar nih. sy pn..oo..ok ok..tutup mata tutup mata..dia cucuk.wahh terbaik lah.sakittttt okkkkk. -____-

pastu kene naik tingkat atas.jalan...smbil tolak besi sangkut air tu.huhu.dia tunjukkan bilik..dpt bilik sorang.i was like.wah inilah bilik baru ku.hehe.

first kesusahan yg paling x digemari.time nk g toilet.wah wah.susahnye mak aih.nk kene bwk air tu lagi.nk kene gune sebelah tgn lagi.waduh2.

perkara kedua paling tak digemari.tiap2 pagi.tepat kol 8.akan masuklah seorang nurse ke dlm bilik saya.nk amek darah katanya.mula2 tak taw kesakitan dia tu.first time amek.waaahhh wahhh.sakit yg teramat sangat sangat sangat.adehh.sejak dr tu.pagi2 kol 8 tgk jam.resah2 takut2 je.hohoho~

tiap2 waktu mkn bile nk bg ubat..dia akan check temperature kita..ade 1 harini..dia check check..skali" adik, panas sngt ni.kene cucuk ye"

perghh.terbaik lagi..haha.dia kate dh 40+ celcius .dh panas sngt ni dia kata.ape lg..kene la cucuk dkt tutttt.haha.sakit nyeee :'(

first day msk tu..bosan2 kat bilik..sms la rakan2..bitahu,msk hospital..ramai yg tekejut.ade yg terus kol.kama betol ke? jgn la main2.haha.mentang2 saya selalu berjenaka.xkan la msk hosp pn wat lawakk weh.haha..

pastu sms.tanye.bilik mana..kata nk dtg ..hehe.

so kepada yg dtg tu..terima kasih la byk2. jasamu di kenang. pakcik makcik sedara mara ramai yg dtg..bwk bermcm2 air.bagus katanya.100 plus jgn cite.byk gle.air revive lah apela.senang cite air2 yg memberi tenaga tu,segala jenis dh diorang bwk. ade skali tu, my auntie bwk sup ketam.mak aihhhhh.mmg no no lahh..bau pn kenot go..x mkn pun.. tp tulah..sepanjang kat sana..selera mkn mmg xde. mkn sikit kuar balik.mkn sikit g toilet.tp kalau nk cpt baik kene mkn byk2.camne tu.1 ari tu mak tanye, "akak nk mkn ape kak..ckp la ape2 pn xpe"

*wah ni yg nk dgr ni* haha.ape lg mmg jwb pizza lah kan. hehe.mak yg baik hati tu pun,pegi la beli..berjaya mkn..tp 1 slice aje..haha.at least mkn kann :D

kpd kwn2 yg di sayangi.. dy, irene, kak diha, nana, amani, halu, mukhlis, aini, joe, nami, besfren sy sarah, dan ramai lg sory x ingt..thank u so much..

best dpt hadiah2.hee.

*specialll thanks to my sister,pikah..tiap2 mlm dia tdo hospital,teman2 akak dia.masa tu cuti skolah,dia br drjh 5.hehe thank u syg pikachu! (dh blanjer dia pegi zoo pun..hakhak)

Alhamdulillah,skarang dh sihat..ape yg penting,jauhi aedes,hindari denggi.sngt la x best.haha.sekian.. :)