Prayer.

in life, there's a lot to faced. to be face. we are not living in our own world.

i've met a lot of new people. i've met people with different lifestyles different beliefs different cultures. at some point, im shocked. yes i am shocked.

i am seriously, not used to this kind of 'life. the life which is so different from mine.

boys and girls getting together, doing anything they like as if there's nothing wrong with that. as if it's something enjoyable, no sin of doing, and nobody cares about that.

don't you think of your family, the people who loves you, who wait for you to come back ?

all these things really open up my eyes wider. to see this world, this real world. which is full of people doing things they like, ignoring the existence of God. the punishment, the sins , apatah lagi hati orang lain.

change. can people change? can people change with just saying "i want to change. and thats its?

where's the effort? no point of saying you want to change, but no action, no effort and the most, no prayer. Islam hanya pada nama.

at this point, at this kind of situation, where i feel weak like there's nothing i can do, at least to help, i just need someone to be there for me. to just hear me and talk to me. and for this, i thank you. really thank you, my love.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,

ampunkanlah dosa kedua ibu bapaku,

dosa aku, dosa ahli keluargaku,

dan dosa kawan2 ku. berikanlah petunjukMu ya Allah. Amin.

stadiums.

Been to Emirates Stadium, Arsenal.

Liverpool Stadium, Anfield.

and Old trafford, Manchester United stadium. this one masuk dalam stadium :)

*Chelsea je belum lg. Semua best, especially Arsenal. wink ;)

in class.

harini nak cerita pasal apa yang jadi dalam kelas. basically not just in class. but the whole day. i can say..today is ...quite a bad day.

after 3 weeks wout classes, harini ada kelas. so of course rasa malas gle nak bangun, plus malam before tu susah nak tidur. bangun..pegi kelas macam biasa.. tengah2 lecture, around 1230am..suddenly..

*Kringgggggg. Announcement. this is an emergency. everybody please leave the building immidiately. *ulang ulang ulang*

fuhhh fire alarm yang kuat gle lecturer kat depan terkejut, me and the classmates mcm "what happened? what happened? takde la cuak sangat, sbb takda nampak api or bau asap ke apa.but the fire alarm..very very the loud i tell u. bingit telingaaaa!

so..semua the whole college kena keluar, ramai2 ikut emergency exit. orang2 kat luar semua tengok. me and alicia my classmate, keep wondering. is this just a practise or btul2 ada api? siap officer2 college semua pakai baju safety. so end up kitorang semua keluar ikut pintu luar yang penuh gayat itu, keluar dari kolej pegi satu taman ni. tak sampai 5 min kat situ, jalan blk kelas balik. wadehekkk. haha. tapi ok la, at least hilang segala mengantuk dalam kelas :p

Sambung kelas. this class.. so far.. this lecturer has the worst handwriting . seriously. dia sendiri pun sedar tu since students selalu tanya dia "what is that, what is that? tengok orang sebelah, tanya orang depan, orang belakang, sbb tak faham dia tulis apa. tp dia selalu la cakap, ladies and gentleman, i really apologize for my handwriting. apologize2..

today's class. ramai budak nakal. buat kertas bentuk kapal terbang, pegi "fly kan kat orang tepi. orang depan. hadehh dah macam darjah lima dah haa. pastu dkt kertas tu ada tulis something, sampai anyone yang dapat, will turn back and tanya sapa bagi. mana tahu? because the person who did the "plane sat right in front of me. huhu.

Class until 430pm. cepat2 pegi surau solat asar sbb dah nak habis waktu, around 450 tunggu bas, which is betul2 depan kolej. 15 min... okk bas dah sampai. penuh gile. takpa tunggu next one. another 15 min.. okk bass yeay! penuhhhhhhh lagiiiii. pintu pun dia tak buka, sebab penuh so dia jalan je. sobs! .. takpa..tunggu lagi..mana bas ni..sejuk gle kot.. below 10 today.. tgk jam, wow 540! dah sejam tunggu bas omaigott. ok next one sampai. hapy hapy. please please jangan full. skali......... byeeeee dia jalan straight jee. sabaaaaa. can i turn into incredible hulk nowww.

fuhh~! sungguh menguji kesabaran tak ingat punya. fikir2, dah tiga bas penuh, sejam tunggu. jalan kaki ke ni? adehh. jalan laa.. sorang2..sejuk2..jalan..jalan..first time ni balik jalan kaki..jalan lagi.. hopefully tak sesat..since im the type of person yang senang gle sesat. susah nak cam jalan :|

smpai Elephant and Castle..ohh ok! very familiar this place. tak larat jalan, tunggu bas. okk bas dah smpai.. whatttt? penuh jugakkk?? grrrrr. saba kama sabaaa. istigfar istigfar. ok there comes the next one, this one mcm , tak kira penuh tak penuh naik jugak. Alhamdulillah dapatt.. baru nak lega, masuk2 bas je..adoii bau apa pulak nii..bau someone yang sangat tidak menyelerakan. serious susah nak bernafas kottt. saba lagiii. haa, ada pulak this one guy staring2 at me mcm tengokkk je. tak penah tengok orang ke?! bila ter tengok dia, dia senyum. scaryyyyy adoiyaii apelah naseb harini. bad day bad day~!

so end of story. penat gle. macam2 pulak jadi. oh tomorrow the day after tomorrow next week next month thursday friday saturday sunday monday tuesday wednesday, please be good. .the end.

Never alone.

Yes, my blog is boring. noted. and you dont need to waste your time checking any updates from this page eh apesal emo nih.

btw, today..i want to talk about 'independence,

it has been more than 5 months since im here in London. a place i never thought i would have the chance to live in. but a place i always wanted to go. Alhamdulillah.

so far, my life here is fine. from knowing nobody until i met all these friends whom i consider as family here, going to classes, exams, travelling sometimes, my life here is fine.

im in a holiday now. starts from last 15th Dec 2010 until todayitsfebruaryyaww and it was a damn long holiday. sangat lama sampai rasa bosan gile nak balik msia terus :|

back to the topic.

seriously, i have learn a lot. here. in here. in a new place. with all strangers. with new cultures.

i met lots of new people, lots of new friends. and ive learn a lot from them. from inside the house itself, from the neighbours, from the classmates the college mates, the people ..

some of them, umm i didnt mean saying this as 'mcmlahkautubagussangat', but then again, theres a couple of them which all the time keep saying things like 'bosan gle. nak carik skandal kat sini. gile bosan sampai rasa nak mati. weh lonely kot. aku lonely la. rasa macam sorang2 etc.

yes, i admit. sometimes kat sini rasa bosan. tp benda2 mcm lonely gle . alone. takda kawan takda sapa2 ni..umm think again. someone told me. whenever u feel lonely, alone. u think u have no one, no family, no friends. always remember that u always have Allah swt. He is always there. He always hears you. He is always with u no matter what. :)

So be independent. You are never alone.

Be thankful. Be grateful. and I am blessed with all that i have.

My family, my friends, and him.